We will start counting your age from the moment of your birth but you have been living already for months inside me, living perhaps more than most of the adults do, growing, developing, changing, preparing for the biggest miracle of life you will be en integral part of, it will happen to you.

Maybe these months are not counted as your life because we live only once we think, once we start making our own decisions but this is not completely right, if someone falls into a coma no one says they are dead even though a machine keeps them alive.  And who says you don’t think? You feel, you hear by now, you have emotions and perhaps even thoughts and dreams.

What’s more, even if your little bubble inside me does not make an exciting home, there is the whole world outside which you are also experiencing and even reacting to.  This is the world we will be writing about for you.  I wish you could tell me how is the life in your world now. We often wonder what you are doing in there, why do you suddenly decide to bounce rhythmically or which part of you push against my tummy, are you stretching or turning, are you still upside down or were the latest vicious moves you performed turning you over again. Is in your genes written a picture of the world, are you born with tabula rasa you will film or is the genetic code already carrying some type of information about the world you are yet to experience

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But however much you take in from the outside world now here you will find more. These pages will tell you a little bit about the world outside while you are busy growing and moving inside of me. You will read about the places we took you to, the movies we watched, the food we cooked.  You will read little stories and parables, inspirational poems and songs (uncle Claudio is the man, he is the one who so eagerly feeds your little soul with worthwhile thoughts and artistic impressions )

You will learn about love and maybe sometimes a bit about disaster or disappointments and other things in life that are just part of it. Most of all however you will learn about love I hope.  Not just because it is the most important and the most rewarding and fulfilling thing, but because there is a lot of it around you.  There is love that Marcus feels to me and you, The love i feel to both of you, the love of your grandparents and other people who will soon form part of your family and your life, love of our friends like Claudio, like Niki and Collin and other people who never speak it but often show it to us in little gestures, in attitudes, in the way we can rely on them, in the way they are.

And hopefully you will learn from these pages about the most important, the love between man and woman, the true, real love that grows each day, the love that becomes an essence of your life, that makes you a batter person and makes you feel secure and warm and makes you want to do that thing that only people who are truly in love should do, bring another life into the world and care for it, fulfill a destiny of every specie yet I think with us humans and in the world we created we should now strive to do it aware of the responsibility it puts on us.

The responsibility is to make this little person who relies on you truly happy so they can make others around them happy and the world a better place.  And you cannot do it when you are not happy yourself and most of us cannot be truly happy when they are alone in the world so the first thing is to find that other person that cycle of happiness.

And this is the toughest part. Not only because often we fall for the wrong people in our desperate search to fill the empty space, not because we often waste too much time with them. We do not really know what we are looking for until we find it.  We may delude ourselves in a natural desire to love, we can try to give the best to every person that takes the place on our side.  We should give it the best shot, surely but sometimes we may give too much, lose too much to be able to go on and find the true thing and give it the best of us. We may become lazy or just think we do not deserve any more or even genuinely think that perhaps it is as good as it gets. So how do we know to go on and look for more and aim higher? We don’t really you see, and this is the tricky bit.

I do know though that to a degree you will feel it if you are honest to yourself and others.  If you listen to your own thoughts, learn to understand yourself, notice little doubts and also trust in fate.  Sometimes the worst thing that may happen to us will lead us to our true destiny and the best part in our life

This is where I believe I am now and your dad and you are a part of it.

Maybe your dad will say something else in here because I don’t know how to finish it off or maybe don’t even want.  He is  where I arrived, now he can take over…

…and gladly i do. Let me tell you that your Mum is the most beautiful person i have ever met and i have much to learn in the fine art of not wasting your time and by extension life. You are being carried around in a wonderful vessel of passion, care and appetite for life and fulfillment and i am sure you will take more than your 50% share from it. Back to your mum as i am just adding this while fiddling with the code on this site…

This is a song that an artist and a friend, Keith Potger has written. I was invited to his concert in Western Australia and I was sitting next to this beautiful old lady when he sung it not knowing that the song was for her, his mother

you have two hearts like this, hopefully always next to each other our Baby Girl

there’s a brave heart and a gentle soul/ giving me all the strength i need/ and that everlasting smile/ with me ‘cross the miles/ i know your heart will always be my home/ there’s a blue sky over fields of gold/ calling me back where i belong/ with an everlasting love/ it’s you I’m thinking of/ i know your heart will always be my home/ touching down on sacred ground/ out where the sky meets the ocean/ bird on the wing pulls at my heart strings/ taking away all my travelling notions/ so my brave heart, sweet gentle soul/ you give me all the strength i need/ with an everlasting love/ it’s you i’m thinking of/ i know your heart will always be my home.